Elusive Butterfly, Once More With Feeling

Full and Fat Trip

2011-01-19T01:16:00.000-08:00

Yee Sin ~Ruru

KiSS~mmmuackzzzzzzzz

FOUR of us.....Gather gather

Choco on Nana's hand...

Blueberry CHEESE cake.

Yes!The most delicious~"chou taufu"..Nana addicted to it.

Dimsum..here is just a part only.Actually we ate a lotttttt...

Final !!De Garden

2010-06-13T00:22:00.001-07:00

De Garden~TOS

Continue our happy hours

2010-06-13T00:09:00.000-07:00

Steamboat

2 persons that we waited for a long time...=.=

Siew Wai and me~

Failed to broke the record, just ate 40 cups of ice-cream and pudding, CHALLENGE next time

Finally they were arrived, continue our happy hours__SHOPPING

Gathering~Fun Time

2010-06-12T08:46:00.000-07:00

YS, Lina and me~

Al'olio Spaghetti

Royal king coffee

Gyoza

chawamushi

Having lunch at Cafe Takahashi while waiting for my friends arrival..

Peace in mind &Comfortable

2010-06-12T00:23:00.000-07:00

'ZEN' was backed recently..hidden feel was backed, but still not sure my feeling..Sometimes feel guity when face them because i'm not good as well, they will get hurt if stay together with me! After that accident, i don't dare to think too much, just let it be normally...now i should focus on my study!This few days, i also stayed at 4th student house.I felt comfortable and calm when stayed with them, my mind more fresh.I gain more experince from them, they just like my companion! Sharing together, pillow talk together, enjoy fun time together... an unforgettable moment^^

Appreciated

2010-06-03T20:50:00.001-07:00

I felt that my blogging style is a bit different from my friends..For me, i just want to share my feeling, my recently stuffs...so i will say all my story in my blog..i hope all of my friends can know my stuff through my blog. Sometimes i'm not a confident, i smile in front of my friends but it was just my appearance. Many of them think that i'm a strong, everything can settle by myself and recover faster..Actually i'm not willing to let them saw my weaknesses so i try to hide myself..Last few days, Edwin called me. He feel that i'm not the girl that he knew before..he want to know my news. Then i told him all of my stufsf. He try to comfort me and encourage me. At that time, i felt happines because of this best friend. I'm really appreciated..thanks a lot!!

Random,hihi

2010-06-03T20:31:00.000-07:00

Early in the morning, feel boring and lazy...Suddenly wish to blogging, but still have no idea about what to share.So just upload my recently photo...

Before ~

After hair cut and wear contact len~

Welcoming~

2010-06-03T02:16:00.001-07:00

Tie up my hair....^^

Blue Sari

Today is the Exchange of MOU ceremony, SGM has been invited by UTAR to perform a Muhibah Dance but it was cancelled at the end...but we still have to wear our costume to welcome VIP. I'm wearing a Sari but i forgot to bring my 'selendang' = scarf...but never mind because we were not performed..

Confusing or Jealous??Who know?

2010-06-01T19:03:00.000-07:00

Everytime i open my facebook, i also will take notice of her profile, attentive to her new updated..I know i'm not excellent as her but sometimes i still will compare with her...Even though they end up their relationship long time ago, but i still care about it. Maybe i have listen something from others before. They had denied but who can estimate their future? However, that was none of my business anymore.. If they really get together, i will wish them..the most important is that last time they broke up is because of some small matter. I don't hope that they have any misunderstand and cant be a friend! So, i hope they can disengage themselves from the misunderstand..

Y2S2, new sem

2010-06-01T18:42:00.000-07:00

New semester was started, of course i get my result, a bit suprised but it still was not my expectation..i really cant understand why i still cant get good result even though i put much effort.When my mum knew my result, she didn't scold me or nagged me, she just asked me to review my past study behavior..I'm feel guity because i let them worry and feel disappointed...I hope i cant meet their expectation this coming semester...but unfortunately, i've meet the same tutor again! She is a strict tutor, but i think is good for us at least she take her responsibility as a tutor. One thing that get us in trouble is that we'll feel that she dislike us, this make me feel despress! Maybe is just our perception..now we try to change the class, if still meet the same tutor again, then we have to face our fate, so good luck to us...May Gohonzon bless us!

6 Boys Story...

2010-05-26T18:40:00.000-07:00

My first love~A tall and handsome guy who was a rude person, speak loudly just like me. He treated me nicely but i was made a decision to leave him because i realize that i was the fourth person in this relationship. Means that he got 4 girlfriend at the same time.Could you imagine that??He explained to me and try to detain me but finally i choosed to leave him.
Secondly, he was nothing special for me because we had a few memory only.I didn't know whether he play a trick on me or not??We just get together then he said he wanted to stopped studying and go to KL work. Okay, i can't be a selfish people, so just let him go. At the end, some matters happen, i was accused by him and he choosed to trust his friend but not me, finally we had broke up.
The third one, i think he was the most good boyfriend and also a dream guy for all girls. He really treated me well, tolerated me and we didn't argue since we get together. Whatever i wish, he would try to make it. I was just like a queen.Unfortunately, my mum didn't like us get together because his family's background was not good as well. Finally, my mum transfered me to another school and forbid us to meet each other. At the end, we missed contact number each other then we had broke up.
For me, the fourth one was just like brother or daddy because he likes to nag me. He was same as the third guy but he would blamed me if i done wrongly. At here, i want to apologize to him because i was hurt him too much.
The fifth one is the patron of me. Whatever problem he also would settle for me..i no need to worry anything, just be the princess in the house. But I didn't cherish them all the time.

Well, my retribution was came, i was abandonned by my sixth boyfriend. First time i get this feeling, the sadness feeling...Maybe this is not puppy love anymore, i had put all my love to him because he was different from all of my ex-bf. Actually he was a cute and shy person. Although he look like a fierce person and like to control me, but i didn't revolt him. Maybe is because of his family's background then he just will hide up his mildness. After i knew his family's background, i promised myself that i must treat him nicely..so my role was changed, i was not a Queen or princess anymore because i had to serve a King. Because both of us came from different places and we had our matters to do, so we just can chit-chat every night and met up 2 or 3 times in one year. We maintain this relationship almost one and half years. Actually just heard his voice was enough for me but not enough for him.. Finally, he don't any patient to wait me graduate...

The End but to be continue....

whatever things

2010-02-27T01:54:00.000-08:00

Is time for me to upload my blog.I was so busy for my assignment and also exam recently..Feel that not enough time for me to prepare all those things.Wish to control the time..
My old friend,
I met one of my old and best friend on Tuesday, almost 4 years we didn't met..We look strange, maybe long time we didn't chat..
A strange person,
Today i saw someone look alike him at school(acually i saw him before).His face and bodyshape also look alike as him..attract me..haha...

CNY and Valentime Day

2010-02-14T07:31:00.000-08:00

Omg..a very lonely Chinese New Year and also Valentime Day!The weather was so hot!!Ang Pau is fewer than last year, not syok la!!Every year, I have no chance to celebrate Valentime Day with my partner!The person who celebrate with me every year is one of my "family member"..weird right??I deeply appreciated his(JK) kindness.

Surprising and shocked..
Today, "he" called me..i was amazed to receive his call!I think that he won't call me anymore, but our conversation just like a normal friend..but it is eough at least we still are friend, we didn't feel embarrassed!I think this is the best ending for us.. ^^Happy Chinese New Year to all of my lovely friend

Complicated

2010-02-12T09:49:00.000-08:00

Deep at night, i am rushing my assignment, busy on searching information.Suddenly think about someone, wish to meet him once more time..it already over, just a memory.I already had a new started, good life and i know that it can't return to before.Between us just left "nothing and impossible"!Maybe somebody would like to abuse me in the foulest languages or even kill me but he really left a deep impression on me.When i want to be stable in relationship, then i was abandoned by someone. Actually i haven't put down that incident, it happen so suddenly and i'm not get ready to accept it..I was struck with his appearance...it hard to erase from my heart..this guy gave me a special feeling..first time i met this kind of guy, can you all understand my feeling?Sorry, maybe it is unfair for someone, but i know he will understand me because he really a good man.

My recently photo

2010-01-15T07:53:00.000-08:00

I'm so strong...

Not my baby ah..don't misunderstand..is my cousin baby...hihi..

Dinner with my family~take photo

My new "boyfriend"..believe or not??hihi..handsome??

Truth is found..

2010-01-12T22:57:00.000-08:00

Blanket not warm anymore, it just left lonely and memory,i think is time to let it go with 2009..all is game over and can't came back anymore just like time..Finally i know it from my friends, thanks a lot for your telling and advise..Sorry, friends..I should be honest to you all! If only that truth come out from his mouth, i will trust it!Anyway, i really appreciated for your telling..maybe you think that i'm a stupid girl!The truth is prove and the evidence is point out, why don't you believe it??Actually i want to keep some beautiful memory between us.Even though we can't be a couple, but we still is a friend, i don't wish to hear someone slandered him behind his back! Whether is true or false, it also not important for me anymore coz the decision is already made, hope both of us will have a happiness new life.

New Year 2010

2010-01-01T08:06:00.000-08:00

End of 2009 and welcome 2010!New year is started, i also have to start my new life!What will happen in the future i cant predict, but the most things i feel regret since i born is i cant get the reason from him...if this result was his wishes, i will blessing him..hope he will happy always...Happy New Year to all of my friends..

It's over..

2009-12-19T01:36:00.000-08:00

Think that is a most happiness girl at this world , but now all is change...Start from 20thApril, 2008 and end up on 17December,2009..It was happen so suddenly and i didn't expected that we will end up at this situation!The pain was almost more than i could bear!He make such decision by himself !The most important is I can't bear he hide the true and tried to go alone without inform me!From the beginning, i very support him go Japan but i didn't means that want to end up our relationship!We had promised each other but he broken the promise..finally i abandoned by someone..the feeling so bad!!But never mind..at least he happy and safe is enough

In the recovering process

2009-11-29T03:53:00.000-08:00

This few days, i start preparing my final exam..when i wish to "communicate" with the book, omg!!I started feel nervous again!!Just like mid term that time..I feel breathless and my hand shake seriously..I feel sorry to my parent, especially my mum. I know she very worry about me and she always encourage me with Sensei guidance.Yesterday night, i feel nervous again , then i go chanting and read sensei guidance!It was strange to say, after read sensei guidance(青春的对话), i feel better and more confidence.Inside this book give me a lot of inspire.'头脑的好坏并不是从成绩上可以评估的'. Many people study because want to get good result, get a better job in the future.Of course this is one of the purpose for studying but the most important is enjoying the study and the learning process.Now i am trying to recover my nervous and i'm very sure that i can handle it.If i face any problem, sure i will go back to Gohonzon.I will take all of this problem as a challenge, the challenge which give by Gohonzon. Anyway i will stay in Soka Gakkai Malaysia and fight in Kosenrufu.

Appreciation

2009-11-20T01:40:00.000-08:00

Mid term is already finished one week..that week was so suffer for me because during that time i was sick.Fever, cough, flu, headache all came to me!!At that time, i had pined away dreadfully and my weight was decreased.I feel so hungry but i cant eat anythings...even though i drink milo also vomit..i just can ate fruit and drink the honey..this status remain almost one week..until my exam past..that feeling so suffer!!But i have to thank one person,WJ...he very take care about me..he really is my savior!!Thank You,WJ!!During that time,i feel so stress until cant concentrate on my revision but he willing call me and explain to me slide by slide and he also sent me the porridge and also chocolate milk.Although it is ready-made cup porridge, but i also can feel his care..

Art Gallery

2009-11-20T01:25:00.000-08:00

My Present

2009-11-20T01:12:00.000-08:00

The wind-bell is WJ bought for me during he went to Pangkor while the shell is he collected at the beach..

I feel that crystal ball is filled with the hope, happiness, and also the wishes..like it so much

This crystal necklace is JK sent to me...but it is so big for me...i like the gift box compare to the necklace..

Sacrified for performance

2009-11-20T00:05:00.000-08:00

This is my high heel shoe...i wore it during the dancing performance...quite a great challenge and experience!!Because of this performance i had sacrified my shoe..

Woo~so sad...just three times i wore it...that dancing performance really..=.= let me sacrified my "LOVELY SHOE"

But never mind lo...When we need to get something sure have to sacrify another things...so far as the performance is successfull then it is worth... "opportunity cost"..haha

Upset~

2009-11-02T03:43:00.000-08:00

Long time didn't update my blog..many things have to write..today i heard a news, a shocked news!!3 utar student was dead..the most shocked is that we know 1 of the guy...James..
We just saw him last friday!!We wish to see him again every friday, unfortunately, he was dead. May their souls rest in peace..i will chanting for them..

September feeling

2009-10-02T01:02:00.001-07:00

Already one month i didn't upload my blog..This september was unbearable because it was a exam month..It make me so stress..Feel disappointed of my exam result...i think have to repeat 2 subject!!Actually i know how to do all those question, but i'm so nervous!When i sit for my exam, i had forgot all the things..damn it...have to work lo..if not can't pay repeat fees...

Our strong classrep...

2009-10-01T02:32:00.000-07:00

See the guy who wearing the Black t-shirt?He is the monkey who we want to catch up..Commitment:Vandalism

Why i say so??see it..

See this picture..this table still perfect, right??Let see the next picture..

See!!Understand already?He did it during the lecture class.Maybe he want to challenge our lecturer..haha...

My younger brother's birthday

2009-10-01T02:17:00.000-07:00

Didn't make wishes ah...Then eat my strawberry....yummy...

Do u see his childish face??So naive...haha..cant eat yet...wait me take a photo first..

Wish to blow the candle,look forward to cut the cake...

Study Mood???

2009-08-31T10:16:00.000-07:00

Suddenly i got some study mood tonight..maybe i had already saw him..Before that i can't concentrated on doing revision...but now i had some motivation to study!I study hard to be with him...i have to get good result to strive for my happiness!

Happy happy

2009-08-31T09:56:00.000-07:00

Tonight i chat with my brother, so happily!Since i born, first time i chat with my brother through the phone almost half hour..So suprising that we had the same topic!!Just now he say everyday he eat the malay meal or maggie mee only...then i eat my mum cook..he so pity la...Haiz..so miss him...When he will come back??Wish to go shopping with him la..

Dating with my darling

2009-08-31T00:25:00.000-07:00

Finally i saw him yesterday.I feel excited and happy.I saw him from far...i was attracted by his muscle!!Haha...so man...Just now i had played a test,the result was i had met my lover who was now my boyfriend, if i lost him, maybe i can't find another better than him.I think so.Others people may think that he was not the best and scrupulous boyfriend, but i can feel his care and love.I hope i can bring happiness to him.As long as he happy, whatever i can do for him, i will try my best and won't regret.

Mr Felix's Birthday

2009-08-17T20:51:00.001-07:00

Mr Felix is a very funny, friendly and also humorous tutor.Today is his birthday.We all celebrate with him during the class.He treat us eat nasi lemak and fried mihoon.Although it's cheaper, we felt warm, sweet and happy.Emm..it really delicious.We not just get the free meal,we also had extra entertainment. Mr Felix singing songs while playing a guitar.His voice not bad too,quite nice.Hope next sem subject,B Acc 2 he can teach us again.

In charge of the Exhibition and others event

2009-08-12T10:41:00.000-07:00

Tonight we had discuss about the exhibition,"Cultural of Violent to Cultural of Peace".It will incharge by Utar student for those who are SGM member except narrator that can involve non SGM member.Now we prefer to organize this event at Utar (Perak Campus) on next year February, 2010.So we need to prepare a proposal to Utar.Hope it will be sucesss and going on smoothly.This idea is come from our Sensei.It significant to prohibit the use of nucleon weapon and to lead our world peacefully.In this event i get an order to act as treasurer.Actually i am scare to handle this position because my math is bad.Need to take care such much of money,i scare i will make mistakes.But they say will take care of me.I should be more confident and try my best.Other than that,i also in charge of the student division meeting which i have to act as a MC with Dung Lim.Just now Ah Boon say he so happy and suprise that i accept all the offer that they give me.I will endeavor to do my best and cooperate with them to achieve the goal.

Bad luck come to me already!!

2009-08-12T09:11:00.000-07:00

aiyoyo..the PTPTN make me almost crazy!It made me in trouble!Haiz...it is no choice due to my family financial problem.Yesterday i had checked my ptptn document...damn it..i had fill up wrongly my father's ic no.I was frightened.Then i quickly ask the DSA,they say i can get de form from the government staff during the submission date.After i move on to degree,i felt that all the things was not going very smoothly,especially for my study.It was more difficult than i expect.

My charming Lao Lao

2009-08-11T10:17:00.000-07:00

Just now chat with him,he say want make me angry so that he can see me jump here and jump there...In my memory,1st time i saw him,he is a fierce,stubborn and a bad temper people.But after i know him,he is a also a softness and cute.Sometimes also look like a childish.Is it look like a movie??Many of my friend ask me why i can tolerate with him no matter how he treat me.The answer is i also don't know, maybe is the feeling of love.Even though he always scold me,but i know that he is care about me,so sometimes i never angry with him because it almost is my fault.I know if i wish to maintain this relationship,we need to tolerate each other.I wont regret.

Look forward to end of the month!

2009-08-11T07:38:00.000-07:00

wakaka...end of the month is coming soon!Feel excited!!Coz i can see someone le...almost 8 month din see him..so miss him o...i wish to send him something that can represent our relationhip!But he has refuse,he say waste money.Aiya...never mind la...as long as we can see each other is enough...hope this time our date will not get any trouble..